I made a blog! I don't really know what I'm going to put here, but I am going to brainstorm as I type this while listening to sad indie rock (Neutral Milk Hotel).
So, currently I'm thinking I divide this place - once I figure out how to do that - between posts about my own life, and writings that I am working on. I heard that Andy Weir, the Author of Project Hail Mary, self-published his debut novel, The Martian, on his blog for his readers. I'd love to do something like that with my own debut novel, which I've been posting to AO3. But I am a little worried with the content of my book. Note to self: find out what the rules of this site are before you post your goliath novel on surviving abuse and the trauma that follows.
Perhaps a tag to differentiate between personal updates and writings. Something like that, but I also have no idea how to use this site, and I hope it comes with no cost because I am flat out broke. Like I've got maybe 40 bucks to my name, which is sad. Being 18 and having 40 bucks to your name is a little depressing, but I'm learning not to be so hard on myself, and that I should probably stop spending my money on things I don't need.
My personal life goal to be famous hasn't been going well, but little steps are what counts. I don't even think I'd like to be famous because it sounds stressful, but also I feel like if I don't do something big with my life, once I reach the end of it I will be sorrily disappointed in myself. Maybe one of my songs will go viral on TikTok, but that won't happen if I don't post any of the songs I've worked on. I'm a horrible perfectionist which sort of combines with my ADHD thus making me extremely unproductive.
Who am I? Well my high school final project says that I'm a passionate and kind individual. But I feel like everybody says that. My favorite movie is Fantastic Mr. Fox, it's kind of my thing right now. If someone brings it up to me, it's like I'm a failing dam - I sort of burst, I will start to talk about it, and I will not stop until someone begs me to, or until I become self aware to my own foolishness and slowly go quiet, hoping I didn't completely embarrass myself. I do love to talk however, its one of my favorite things to do, but in my current situation, I don't have a lot of people to talk to. Which is why I'm making this blog! Maybe if I put my words out there, someone will read them, and that's all I really want.
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